You'll Always Be A Part Of Me 18:*

We didn't see each other so often. Cause he has this thing ina his friends and family are first then i guess its me.

Well, i hate that about him but still mo 7ilw itha walad 6ool il wakt bas lazig bil bint lazim shway facha:p

Sometimes i would get upset ya3nie 6ool il yoom maydig ila laiman i go to sleep he calls thats the only time he's free.
and still he thinks alot about his future and stuff so wayid wiya uni.

Remember Barak ?

The guy that called me, and turned out to be Mohammed's friend.

Yes, mohammed never brought up what happened in slider up. ofcourse guys won't be saying this girl shayfa nafs'ha aw inha thigeela , i think;p.

So, that day we were talking..


Mohammed: ehh 9a7 jawan t3arfeen a7ad isma barak alflani??

Jawan: mm, laa mno hatha?

and i really didn't know who he was talking about at that time. Cause ma kint a3arif his family name.

Mohammed: laa khala9 wala shay.

I hate it when people do this to me, they ask me something and then they tell me nothing about it.

Jawan: shda3wa? gool ya3ni?

Mohammed: ga3id as'al bas.

Jawan: ya3ni mn ihni ou il6ireej?

Mohammed: ehh..

Jawan: ok kaifik .

Then, he ended the subject and got to another thing. Bas still i was thinking who's Barak.

Jawan: ligaiiitaaaaa.

Mohammed: shno?

Jawan: mno barakk !!

Mohammed: al7een 6ool il wakt ga3da itfakreen ib hatha wala tismi3een shagool!

Jawan: ely kan wiyak ib slider wiya hatha badir?

Mohammed: sh3arifach ib badir ba3ad??

Hni 3a9ab.

Jawan: laa bas ohwa cousin my friend.

Mohammed: mm, ok.. inzain ou sh3arifach ib barak?

At that point tiwahagt. Shagoula? He called me? Laaa!! But barak told him or something cause mabi i lie ou a6la3 akhir shay ana ily ghala6;s .

Jawan: madrii mathkirr..

Mohammed: shda3waaa?

Jawan: ehh wallaa..

Mohammed: inzain lai thikartay digeelii.

and he closed the line.

I sent him a message.

"it9ika ib wayhi?"

1 message recieved:

" ma 3ash mn i9ika ib wayhich! "

Sent:

"sh3ogba? 3ogob ma 9akaita?"

Incoming Call.

Shilta.

Mohammed: 7abeebtii.

Jawan: shno?

Mohammed: shda3wa za3altay?

Jawan: ya3nie it9ika ib wayhi, ath7ak?

Mohammed: ehh 3adii ma 9ar shayy;p

Jawan: eh wakt inta tabi tghashmar, tghashmar 3ala kaifiik !

Mohammed: enzain gouleelii mno barak??

I told him.

Yes i did.

7amadi was my weakness magdar akhish 3alaih shay.

Mohammed: tadreen ini adri?

Jawan: mn wain?

Mohammed: mn badir. 3abalich ma egouli?
a9lan mn yoom ohwa 7acha 3ashan yab3id 3anich ana ham 7achaita.

Jawan: ahhaaa.

Mohammed: laish ma gilteeli?

Jawan: i wasn't that close wiyak wila shay, ou ma kint abi akharib 3ilaqatkom ma3a ba3ath.

Mohammed: itha ma adafi3 3anich . badafi3 3ala mno?

Jawan: sorry, next time agoulikk.

Mohammed: la inshallah mako next time, bas mara thanya ayshay e9eer seeda itgouleelii.

Jawan: inshalllahh.

Mohammed: 7alat'hom ily yismi3oun il kalam;**

Jawan: seriously? inta cham shakh9iya 3indikk in 1 minute?;p

Mohammed: haa 3aad, la tkhaleeni awareech el3ain il7amra al7een?;p

Jawan: laa tgouull:p

Mohammed: oooooooohhhhhh, ashouuf 6ala3lich ilsan ??;p

Jawan: 3indi mn ziman bas kint asti7y miniik:p

Mohammed: yah yah;p ehh khalich chethy kela zifayyy!:p

Jawan: ehh akhaleek itgoum ou enta tabchi ou tnaam ou enta tabchi! ;p

Mohammed: gad'ha?;p

Jawan: la2!:D

Mohammed: 3abalyy:p

We continued chatting, and he started i6afirny bas ma kint agoula shay:p !

The next time i saw him was my birthday.

Mohammed: 3indi lich surprise il layla!!

Jawan: 9ij shno?

Mohammed: agoulaaha surprise itgouli shno;p

Jawan: osh osh;p

Mohammed: yalla shway ou amirich;p

Jawan: tara ma giltly happy birthdayy!:P

Mohammed: qa9ib?;p

Jawan: oofff, bye!

And i closed the line.

Dressed up and waited for mohammed bel 9ala.

Later mama dashat salamt 3alaiha and i was so excited. But bil yaalah 3a6atni wayh. And she was on her way upstairs.

I looked at her with sad eyes.

Jawan: mama?

Mama: Hallaa 7abeebtii??

Jawan: didn't you forget something?

Mama: laa 7abeebti aghrathy kilhom wiyay.

and she went to her room.

Wow!

I got upset ya3ne ma7ad bel bait kila knows ina il yoom 3eed meeladii?!

Even Khalouddd and Jawa!

Mohammed was outside, i went out and got into his car.

Mohammed: happy birthday, ya a7la ou ajmal insana bil dinyaa;****

and he gave me one of his big bear hugs.

I love him.

Jawan: thank youu;*

Mohammed: la tgouleen za3lana 3ashan giltlich mo qa9ib agoulich happy birthday?

Jawan: la its not that.

Mohammed: 3ayal?

Jawan: wala a7ad bel bait yadri ina today is my birthday!

Mohammed: 3adi 7abeebti yimkin nisaw.

Jawan: every year?

Mohammed: eh 3adii, ana mo lazim a7ad egouli il mohim bas entaii;*

What more can i say?! sikat.

We cruised around. and he took me to this spot madri wain.

We sat there. Just looking at the sky.

Mohammed: shiftay il najma ily mnak?

Jawan: wain?

Mohammed: the one on the right of the moon.

Jawan: ehh

Mohammed: samait'ha jawanii.

I smiled at him and hugged him tightly i never wanted to let go. I wanted him with me the whole time. Kint abeeh yami ou wiyay.

I wanted to sleep on his lap. I wanted to wake up and his face is the first one i see. I wanted to love him with my all.

I wanted him.

I needed him by my side.

I wanted to scream that i love mohammed al flani.

I wanted the whole world to know that he was the one.

I wanted them to know that we're inlove.

I never thought i would fall for anyone like this.

I thought that i would end up marrying someone i never met.

I thought that there will be no one by my side when i needed someone.

But mohammed..

He was there all along.

He knows every little thing about me

Even if it was the stupidest thing

he would always make me laugh even if he didn't have the mood to laugh..

He loved me ib kila.

ib kil ma feeh 7abni

7a6ni ib 3youna

ou sawani mithel il malak

ily 7ata omi ou eboy ma gdiraw isawoun mithel hal insan sawaalii.
.
He has this smile that would hypnotize you.

It's not only his look he was a real man..

Kan rayal mn galb

Kan gad kil kilma.

Gad kil shay gala.

Wala 3omra ghala6 3alay

9a7 i6afirni bas i liked it.

3omra ma khalani anam ou ana za3lana.

6ool 3omra i7asisni ina i'm the only girl in this whole world.

Wala 3omra 7a6 3aina 3ala wa7da ghairi

he would always stand up for me

my family, even my family would betray me but he wouldn't

Years passed and my sister and Khaloud got married.

No one was left at home ila me and mama. Well don't count mama in. She uses her house as a hotel ou 7ag il 3azayim.

Why did she even give birth to me if she didn't want to take care of me?

Ahali kanaw iza3louni ou wa7id ghareeb kan iwanisni.

He's the man that i could depend on my whole life.

And when i see a man he really deserves this word. and not every guy is a man .

He may be a man by his looks but not by his acts aw 7ata i7tarama 7ag il thanyeenn.

7amadii had this problem, he loved being with me which led him to hate being with me.

Why?

Because he was betraying ahali kilihom 3ala ina 3a6ouh il thiqa ou he's dating their daughter.

And i don't think they would have a problem if they knew about us.

Khaltii *om mohammed* would always call me and ask about me, after i graduated she was the one that helped through everything.

ahali mn 9oob omi ou eboy madri 3anhom, i met them when i was small but now i don't know them really well, but i wish i would know them.

I would travel with my friends' but never with mine. Sometimes i would travel with Khaloud, his wife, and children. But never with mama.

With Jawa, her husband, and son. But never with baba.

Khalid and Jawa knew really well what was happening. That was why they were all about and they were never at home. Kanaw yit'hariboun from reality. But i never did. and i don't like to pretend that my life is perfect just to impress others.

Money is not everything in everyones life you know. Kil mn mi7taaj 7ag 7anan.!

And my 7anan was all from 7amady and my friends, never from my family. Sometimes maybe from khaloud and jawa. but never from mama and baba!

all they think that i ask for is money.

They bought me the best cars, best stuff, everything i need and didn't need. But there was no love at any point.

You know when you fall and you cut your knee. mama kisses your knee and puts a bandage, that never happened to me.

When you graduate and you want to get a car and your surprises you with the best car, that never happened to me.

All of these stuff i did them by myself.


Everything.

But there was always 7amadiii..

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ok, that was longg:p

I finished it before 3 wow:p!


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Happy New Year;*

7abaayybii;*

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thanks 3ala il comments;*

and today i guess there will be a long post laa2ana ams i didn't post ou i'm sure bachir there won't be a post!

and i wish you all a happy new year;*

a veryyyyyy looooooong post, longer than the other two. bas 3ad madri meta ra7 akhal9a. so, kilish kilish at 3:p!

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You'll Always Be A Part Of Me 17:*

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laa laa il yoom khaiirrr mashallaahh!:P

comments and followers;) thanks 7abaaybiii;*

I'll try to make this a long post too;*!


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Days went by and our love was growing stronger and stronger. But our family was still apart. I was trying hard on my studies cause i wanted to graduate, finish uni, and get married to 7amadyy.

Even though 7amady didn't talk alot about marriage but sometimes he brings it up. He wanted us to have two kids, one boy and one girl.

I was so inlove with him that a day dosen't pass by until i talk to him. He's my everythingg..


It was his birthdayy.

I bought him alot of things and i put them in a big box.

There was a watch, perfume, sunglasses, keychain... i have no ideaa;p!
alot of things!;p i wanted him to remember me while doing everything. So, i bought him alot of things that he would use on a daily basis.

I sent flowers to his house with chocolate.

Shway wila he called me.

Mohammed: 7abeeebtii mashkouura 3al flowers wil chocolate bas baghaita mn eedich ma 3alaiihhh yoom thany;)

Jawan: hehe, el3afuu its the least i can do.

Mohammed: enzain bamurich nit3asha baraahh, lebsay 3adil mo tgouleenlii laa mabi anzil!

Jawan: okk.;p

I got dressed and told my nanny to take his present at the gate and she went inside.

He arrived and was waiting for me to get in. I tried to pick up the box but i was wearing a dress and it was a little bit heavy.

Jawan: amm, mohammed?

Mohammed: hala?

Jawan: i know its your birthday today and im so sorry and * i started to say things i don't even remember*

Mohammed: shhhhshhh * he put his finger on my lips and i smiled*
amray?

He knew that i wanted something from him when i start to say things that has nothing with the subject.

and i pointed at the box.

Mohammed: shno hatha?

Jawan: your present.

Mohammed: haaa jawan cham present??

Jawan: ya3nii arida mathalan?

Mohammed: ou el ma6loub al7een eni asheela?

Jawan: ehhh;p

Mohammed: 7athiiirr;p

He put it in the back seat and we got in.

Mohammed: al7een elnas ya36oun hadaya ou 7alat'hom bas la happy birthday wala shay;p

Jawan: abaiih sorry sorry wallaaa, happy birthday enshallah el 3umr kila ou allaah y6awil ib 3umrik ou ikhaleek lyy gouul ameen;*

and i kissed his cheek.

Mohammed: ya ma tgouleen shay , ya tgouleen kil shay entay?;p

Jawan: yyyyyy mo kafu agoulik intaa zaiin..

Mohammed: 7abeeeeeebtii entayyy;* wallaa atghashmarr wiyachh;p ou hathyyy boossaa..

And he kissed me on my cheek ou faqa9 wayhi..

Jawan: a77.

Mohammed: a7san;p

Khazaita, then he kissed me again. and i couldn't help but smile he was amazing.

We got to Lenotre el ba7ar.

It was so romantic, we went in hand in hand we sat down had the best dinner ever. It was the first time we went out in public in kuwait.

I was so happy it was the best night ever.

We went to the car and while he was driving he recieved a message. He told me to open it and show it to him. I took his phone opened the message ou beddon qa9d i read the message.

+96599******
happy birthday galbi;*
kel 3am ou enta ib alf khair, 3asa 3omrik 6weel.;************************
i love you!

and thousands of kisses.

I didn't want to make a scene i just showed it to him. My eyes were full of tears and my heart beats were getter faster by the second.

He read the msg and looked at me. I looked him in the eye. A tear fell and he kissed it.

Mohammed: hathi noura.

I couldn't help but cry, it showed that it wasn't from one of his friends.

Mohammed: 7abeebti ma 3alaich, walla la yrou7 balich b3eed.

That was the best night and she has to change the mood.

Jawan: i believe you. bas please la trid 3alaiha.

Mohammed: ou mn gal eni barid 3alaiihaa.

And then i looked at the number and it was noura's cause i had it.

I believed him.

He didn't reply so she called him.

He put her on speaker cause ma kan 7ab ina ishoufni za3lana.

Mohammed: alo

Noura: shda3wa ma trid 3alaii ?

Mohammed: mashkoura ma tga9reen, ajma3een inshallah ka radait !

Noura: mm, ou 3an el part ily i love you?

Mohammed: noura 3aib 3alaiich ana wild khaltich ou adri ina mo qa9dich 7ob ka ekhoch tara fahmich 3adill.

Noura: laish kila it7asisni ini ana wala shay? laish ? shfeek 3alay? laish ma t7ibni ?

Mohammed: noura low sama7tay ana 7ashmich lail7een la'anich bint khalti. bas khala9 3ad khaleeni ib 7aalyy.

Noura: khala9 ana asfaa eni thaya3t wakti ma3a wa7id mithlik.

Mohammed: 7aayach.

And she hung up.

I smiled. walla kint 7aiiiil mistansa ib shno sawa feehaa! ya3nie mat7is hal bint? mayabeech ilwalad !! khalaa9!

Ba3dain everything went back to normal.

He took me back home, i kissed him goodnight.

And went off to bed with a smile on my face.

Those were the best days of my life, every night he would let me go to sleep with a smile on my face.

I get happier in my life by each day i spend with him;*






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a looooong post for my lovely reader;****

i love you;)

comments and enjoyyy;)

You'll Always Be A Part Of Me 16:*

i promised a post bas i didn't post;( sorry!;*

inshallah a long post elyoom..

ana mo fahma elmawthou3 kilish:p ezidoun my followers bas mako comments;( laiish ya rabii laiisshh??;p

yallaa elmohem shway are commenting ! yallaahh a7san mn walaa shay;p! bas still comment;@ pls(a)!;p


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First day of school was amazing..

I caught up with all my friends and classmates! ahh i missed them all;*

maybe i mentioned my school before madri shgilt:p bas now ba2aliiff!

So, i was in a private school with only girls.

I got back home, bas ma kan fee wala a7ad. By that time Jawa graduated from highschool and was in college, she turned 18 yaay! etsoug wanasa so 24 hours i would be with her. no !

it wasn't that way! after mama and baba got divorced all of broke apart. i had no one by my side! Khaloud was always out with his friends. and Jawa was in uni and like that. Mama was always out of town. at yam3at, her friends house but never at her own house.

I would call baba everyday. akalma bas ma ya36eeni wayh wayid! he got married to this girl which was only 20 years old, yes older than Khaloud ib sina, but by that time he was turning 20 which means he's her age.

I hate her.

At the end, i would love them all even though their not by my side bas malzouma a7ibhom their my family. I was the only one that would call them and ask about them. Ma3ana ma7ad kan fatheelii ou ma ya36ouni wayh bas ariz wayhi 3ashan a7acheehom cause i really care about them.

Whenever i open up the subject with my mom about her going around with her friends and not wanting to stay with her children she would change the subject or she would just leave.

But there was always 7amady;*

he was always by my side and he wanted me to be an engineer. Cause ohwa yadris handasa. ou enshallah ana wiyah!

He was always there.

When i got home. It was empty, i had lunch alone.

Went up to my room and called 7amady..

Mohammed: hallaa wallaaaaa

Jawan: hiii..

Mohammed: shfeech??

He knew that something was wrong with me.

Jawan: mako a7ad bel bait.

Mohammed: enzain??

Jawan: bas.

Mohammed: 3ashan ma7ad bel bait.?

Jawan: ehh..

Mohammed: 7abeebti ;*

He knew how sad i was about the whole thing. but he couldn't do anything. yabi yit7acha, yabi idafi3 3ani, yabi isawi shay bas he can't!
he would just tell me to hold on and live every minute of my life without looking back. But still kil mn yabi 7aanan mn oma ou eboh!

Jawan: how's your day?

Mohammed: el7amdila kel shay mashi tamam, shakhbarr ilmadrisa?

Jawan: greattt..

Mohammed: yallaa il7amdilaaa;)

Jawan: i missed you..

Mohammed: 7abeebti walla ana akthar!!

I haven't seen him for maybe 3 weeks.

Mohammed: abii ashoufiichh, 3ogb ilghada amirich?

I never went out with 7amadi in Kuwait.

Kint a7is ina shay ghala6 ou ina i was betraying my family bas they don't even give a shit so i went for it.

Jawan: mm, ok. wain enrou7?

Mohammed: madrii laii 6ala3na inshouuff..

Jawan: okk..

Mohammed: bas 3ad thi7kayy.. kel hatha za3al?:p shno hal dala33??
bas tara ana a7ib ily yitdali3oun!;p

Jawan: ok then it's not me;p

Mohammed: ooookkhhh mo entay?!;p akbar dalouu3aa entayy!

Jawan: olllaaa.. qawiya 3ad hathiii:p walla ini mo dalou3a bas the part that you love them, khala9 3ayal ana dalouu3a;) hehe;p

Mohammed: a7ibiichh;*

Jawan: me too;*

Mohammed: yalah khal atghada ou ayeelich!

Jawan: bel 3afya;*

Mohammed: e3afeech;*

He's everything a girl would wish for.

It was September and 7amady's birthday was coming up!

It's on September 27 and mine was on January 19.

He was turning 20, and me 17 !

I wanted to give him something speacial.

I got dressed and went out to 7amady's black tinted G Class.

It's his car now bas i don't remember what was his car at that time:p.

I got into his car and off we went.

We got of our neighborhood and i jumped on him and hugged him...

Jawan: i missed youuuuuu.

Mohammed: ooff mo kithery.. wa'akheerann! entay mo gayla mako physical actions shako tlimeenii?;p

Jawan: waaaay.. bedaiinaa??:p

Mohammed: laa, 3adi abousiich?? ;p

Jawan: okkk;p

and he kissed me on my cheek .

Waaay eyanin hal walaaddddd a7ibaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

We cruised around. mn yarmoouk to qortuba to nuzha , faiha, and on..

We were holding hands.

Kan yabi enazilny nit3asha ib ma63am 3al ba7ar i forgot it's name bas ana ma kint labsa 3adil 7ag ma63am ou chethy so ma rethaiitt:p.

He would look at me and smile and i would blush.

That was the best part of all.

Kalaiinaa ou sharabna ou tha7akna ou solafna and had a lot of fun just the both of us.

At 10 he took me back home.

Mohammed: yalla al7een farshay asnanich ou seeda elfraash:p

Jawan: tara mo kubrikk ana.;p

Mohammed: ya3ne ana ely 9ert a3arif arid ou qawiyaaa!;p 7alataaa wallaa;***

Jawan: hehe, bas! ba3ad ma tabi a7ad 3alaiik, bas enta et6afirnii??

Mohammed: ehh bas ana:p

Jawan: bas yallaa byee;p

Mohammed: byee.

he waited until i got in and drove off.

Ou 3ala 7athy Khaloud 6ila3 ib wayhii..

Khalid: mn wain yaya babyatna??:p

I don't get it shfee elawadim 3alaii?:p

Jawan: laa jad jad, ana mo yahil;p

Khaloud was the brother that everyone would want. he was protective and ma yertha a7ad esaweeli shay , bas he's a boy fa kila 6ali3 3adiii..

Khaliid: atghashmar wiyach:p mn wain yaya?

Jawan: jam3iyaaa..

Khalid: ahhaa, wain laghrath??

Jawan: kint abi shay bas ma ligaitaa..

Khalid: ehh, yala rou7ay namay bachir warach madrisa.

Jawan: mabi a6awilha ou ihya g9eeraa:p, okkk al7een ray7a!

and i went up ou Jawo ib wayhii..

Jawan: allaahh ishawig your dress abiii!

Jawa: enzain akhli9 mna ou a36eech:p

Jawan: waii33 mabeehh!

and i changed my clothes, did my business and went to bed called 7amady..

Mohammed: Jawaniii

Jawan: na3ammm..

Mohammed: na3am allah 3alaiichh... laish ma nemtay?;p

Jawan: tabi elfaka khala9 ok bye.

Mohammed: yuba atghashmar wiyach, etha ma anam ou akhir 9oot sam3a entay amoott..

Jawan: smila 3alaiik:*

Mohammed: 7aayatii;* .. shfeech ma nimtay?!

Jawan: mo gadra anam..

Mohammed: agoulich qi9a?;p. and i mean it ib 6areeqa ina ma a7asisich inich yahil;p

Jawan: hehe, ok!

Mohammed: sim3ayy... mara kan fee wa7da maleeqa isimha..

Jawan:Noura;p

Mohammed: inzain wala ihimich noura;p .. ou wa7daa kamla ou el kamil allaahh..

Jawan: Jawan:p

Mohammed: shal thi'3a entay?;p
bas ham entay wala tiz3ileen:p

Jawan: lol:p

Mohammed: ou wa7id jameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelll. isma mohammed :p

Jawan: laa el9ara7a a2aydik:p

Mohammed: siktay khalagoulich:p
kanaatt noura kila titlazag ib hal mohammed bas jawan ma ta36eeh wayh ou ohwa ma y7ib noura kilish..

Jawan: a7saann!!;p

Mohammed: la tkhaleeni aghayir isimha 7ag jawan al7een:p

Jawan: la ana asfa kamil;p

Mohammed: 3abaalyy:p, ou kan imooott 3ala jawan kan i7ibha 7ob mo 6abee3i bas kilish ma ta36ii wayh

Jawan: afaa ana ma36eek wayh??

Mohammed: al7een ana gilt entay jawan?;p

Jawan: ok:p

Mohammed: elmohem yoom mn elayam oma galatla tizawaj noura gaam ou 3a9ab hal mohammed ou 6angar la'ana ma yabi nouraa kilish mo 3ajbitaa bas ohwa i7ib oma ou ma yigdar igool 7ag oma laa' .
fa khala9 qariraw il 3irs. ou jawan kanat ma3zouma, dash mohammed el qa3a chan eshouuf jawan ou 3younha matrousa dmou3a. gal yimkin 3younha t3awirha wila shay. ou ra7 ou tizawaj noura ou ra7aw shahar il 3asal ou stanisaw ou radaw bas mohammed lail7een ma nisa 3an jawan.. lail7een i7ibha ou ra7 i'9il i7ibhaa.. ma3ayy??

At that time 7ail indimajt bel q9a !

Jawan: ehh ehh kamil.

Mohammed: rad mn shahar el 3asal wila galoula ina hal Jawan tuwafat ou gam ou za3al ou tikadar. bas may9eer ibayin 7ag noura. Shway wila yilga '6arf 3ind sayarta wila mn Jawan. Kan maktoobb..
"a7ibik . Jawan"
khalat il rayal ib hal kilma ou ra7at ! Allaah yer7amha, kanat khosh wa7da:p! gam ou yaab bint ou samaha Jawan. The end!

Jawan: al7een akhir shay tkhaleenii amoott??:(

Mohammed: ma gelna entay ya mara! smila 3alaiich mn elmoot;* ya 3al yoomi gabel yoomichh!

Jawan: haaaaayy, smila 3alaiikk;*

Mohammed: 7abeebti;* shraych bel qi9a bas?;p

Jawan: taksir il kha6iirr..

Mohammed: enzaiin yallaa namayy;* t9bi7een 3ala khaiirr.

Jawan: ou enta mn ahalaa;*

This story laih hal yoom ou mohammed kila egoulii iyaha itha ma agdar anam:p ma3ana taksir il kha6ir bas walla tyaninn dam mna ohwaa!;p

I went to sleep with a smile on my face, i knew that he was the one and i was hoping that he would always be there by my side! I loved him ib kil ma feenii ......

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awal shay read itt...

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أحبك كثر ماقد صار احبك رغم ماصار

أحبك كثر ماقد صار احبك رغم ماصار

أحبك كثر ماتمطر بصدري من غلاك امطار

أحبك كثر ماصارت اراضي العشق ممطوره

أحبك كثر ماتفتح شبابيك الربيع ازهار

احبك كل ماغنت عشان الصبح عصفوره

أحبك كثر ماتوقف على جنب الطريق اشجار

احبك كثر مايقسى الشتاء وتهاجر طيوره

احبك كثر ما فالارض بنت تلفت الانظار

واحبك كثر مايرتاح عطر بصدر مغروره

احبك كثر ماجاب للمساكن اعطته زوار

احبك كثر ماجانا صباحك يشبهك نوره

احبك كثر ماتهدي كفوف الوصل من تذكار

واحبك كثر ماشالت ايدين العاشق زهوره

احبك كثر مانقرا عن الفارس عن المغوار

احبك كثر مانسمع ولاشفنا ولا اسطوره

احبك كثر ماتلعب الدنيا بالعاشقين اقدار

احبك كثر ماذا الحظ دايم يعلن قصوره

احبك كثر ماعافت رياحي بحسبة البحار

واحبك كثر البحار يعشق نسمة بحوره

احبك كثر مايتلحفني من شغل باعذار

احبك كثر مافي الناس ناس بجد معذوره

احبك كثر ماملت قصايدنا من التكرار

احبك كثر مالشاعر تمنى حب جمهوره

احبك كثرماشفنا على وجه الزمان آثار

احبك كثر مافالارض فقر وناس ميسوره

احبك كثر مادارت بذهن الحالمين افكار

احبك كثر مافي الخير ناس للخير مذكوره

احبك كثر ماانذرني حكايات الحطب للنار

احبك كثر ماقلنا عن الاحوال مستوره

احـبكـ كثر مانجهل متى توقف بنا الاعمار

احـبكـ كثر مانسمع حكايا حب مشهوره

احـبكـ كثر ماضاق السجين بلعنة الاسوار

احـبكـ كثر ماهاج البحر واجتاحته ثوره

احـبكـ كثر ماننسى واحبك كثر مانحتار

احـبكـ كثر مايسهر محب وفي ايده صوره

احـبكـ كثر ماتقطع شفاتك في العسل مشوار

احـبكـ كثر ماخدك يخلي الشمس مبضوره

احـبكـ كثر ماروج عليك الحسن من اخبار

احـبكـ كثر ماصدرك يدوخ الورد بعطوره

احـبكـ كثر مافي عينك من السحر اغوار

احـبكـ كثر مافيك الغلا ماوفت قصوره

واحـبكـ للزمن ساكن واحبك لو زماني دار

احـبكـ يامدينة حب وسط الصدر معموره

احبك والتفت شاعر لعينك وامطرت اشعار

حلف مايمسى الليله قبل مايكتب شعوره

ورتبتك بصدري وانت تستاهل وراعي دار

تفضل قلب اوراق الغلا وايديك مشكوره

تفضل لو انت مثلك ذكرت تهلت الانوار

وقمت اجمع من اشواقي قصايد عشق منثوره

تلذذ بالجمال وقلت ابهديك القصيدة إجرار

غلاك وصدق حبك ماترك لي نفس مكسوره

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كفايه لو تطل ويفرح بطلتك دار الجار

كفاية لو تشوف الناس بنظرتك معسوره

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You'll Always Be A Part Of Me 15:*

That was the first and best night i was out all alone with 7amadii. i never wanted to let go. i needed him by my side, as in my parents are going to seperate at that time. and i have alot of problems and issues in my life i don't want another issue. but loving him was the best part in life. he was charming. he would never let me down.


we went back to the hotel hand in hand. i wished that we could hold hands infront of everyone but at the time we got there we let go. i went up to the room where i found jawa waiting for me.

Jawa: entay wainich? adig 3ala mama etgouly 6al3a wiya mohammed! shno ma 3indich ahal entay?

Jawan: ok? entay shako?

Jawa: shno ana shako?? mo 3aib 6al3a wiya wa7id laiman ni9 il layl. what do you think ilnas begoloun 3anich???

Jawan: god! he's just a friend and why do you always care about what people say? ma 3indihom ghairich ya3ny il awadim? iffff, ana banam

Jawa: tara al7een entay mo yahil.

I ignored her and went off to bed.

Jawa was the type ely ma tertha a7ad eghali6 bas the problem she does most of the mistakes. But she's still my sister ou i know really well ina she's doing this bas 3ashan tkhaf 3alay. cause she knows really well ina mama and baba really don't care about us. ya3nie i love them but still kil wa7id yamshi wara ma9la7ta GOD we're your children look after us for a while. so, mama would spoil us all the way, and also baba. bas still people not only want money and go shopping..


lail7een kil wa7id yi7taj 7anan mama and baba. oh well this is life and hatha 7al el nas, can't change anything ila il 7amdilaa!!

After that day i didn't see 7amady he went to manchester and stayed in his friend's apartment. thaag khilgy but still he wanted to have fun. i would talk to him every night and every minute when we were.
It was time to come back to kuwait. i didn't want to come back cause that was the way that i could see 7amady by khalti ou i guess we won't see khalti that much in Kuwait.

Noura was as sweet as candy with me, just after what happened with her and mohammed. she became a great person. bas akeed i know her really well she won't leave me alone. she really is planning for revenge, and i can tell.

We went back, but 7amady came back 2 days after us. I was really happy when he came back. laiman ya khalood went to pick him up from the airport and just my luck khalti kanat titghada 3indina, so he came straight to our house.

I was sitting next to khalti. when the door opened and he came in wallaa radat rou7i , i felt that i was alive again. cause i haven't seen him since that night. Kaan 9ayir eyanin akthar mn before. he had this sexy look that could attract any girl.

He came in and kissed everyone ila ana, we just shook hands. ofcourse mabeeh ebousni jidamhom it's not like i wanted him to kiss me;p . well i really did !;p

Mohammed Al-Flani:
entay ba3dain;)

He knew that i was waiting for it but i acted dumb.

Jawan Al-Flani:
what's happening ba3dain?

Mohammed Al-Flani:
fahmatny;)

I giggled and looked up at him, he winked.

ahhhhh, his wink wallaa i remember every single look, touch, and kiss like it was yesterday.

Everyone went to rest and went to do their business so, we were left alone.

Mohammed: ta3alayy *pointing on his laps*

Jawan: seriously?

Mohammed: atghashmar ya3ni? ta3alayy !

Jawan: next to you.

and i sat next to him.

Mohammed: kaifich entay elkhasrana:p

Jawan: yeaa kaifi;p

We sat there looking at eachother for an hour.

I was bluushingg. ma7ib a7ad e6ali3ni aw iny a6ali3 a7ad in the eye cause 7ail asti7y:p

Mohammed: 7alata ;*

and he poked me 3ala khasry.

Jawan: laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

Mohammed: tghareenn??;p

Jawan: ehh..

Mohammed: wanasa 3ayal ..

and he started poking me slightly again.

i couldn't handle it, i was trying to get up but he pulled me to his lap.

Jawan: ayyyyyyyy , bas wallaa i3awiiiiirrrr:(, mn kither ma t7arakt 6agat rgibti i3awiirrr.

I started to massage my neck and still i didn't notice that i was on his lap.

Mohammed: wain i3wair?

I pointed at my neck.



Shway wila he kissed it.

I blushed. I couldn't handle him anymore he was too much.

by then i noticed. ana shga3da asawi? oma is my mothers friend. his father knows my dad. and he knows my brother.

Jawan: mohammed laaa.

Mohammed: asiff walla asiiff

i got off his lap.

Jawan: mohammed please lets leave all this 7ag ba3dain.

Mohammed: inshallahhh;)

And since that day he didn't even touch me, he would ask at first. He was such a gentleman. He was so perfect. Even though no one is perfect but to me he was.


We started talking, and i told him all about Noura and how nice she became, bas gali ina adeeer bali mnhaa.


By then he went home to rest cause he didn't sleep.

School was coming up and i was starting my senior year.

I was waiting for it all my life.





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3ala 9outik ana a97a ou 3ala hamsik anam el lail..

ou etha dam3i nizal mni kfoufak 9arat il mandeel

jideed ib kil shay 7obakk

jideed ib 3a6fak ou galbakk.

ou ana wiyak nabth ou galb

ana wiyak nab'9 ou galb ..


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love you;*

You'll Always Be A Part Of Me 14:*

Previously...



Meanwhile..

Noura: shfttt b3ainiikk, laiman agoulik ma t9adignii !!

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Mohammed: Shoufay 3ad ana a3arif Jawan 3adil fahma? ou tara entai wi9alteenii laiman 7adii, ma fee wala shay baini ou bainha ou etha kan fee shay 9adgini lani mkhayif mnich wala mn ely akbar minich .. ou in sima3t inich masaiteeha ib ay kilma wallaa la tshoufeen shay 3omrich ma shifteeh, ou ba3dainn wiyach entay ma tyouzeen?! ma kibartay??? mn ou entay sgheera ou entay 7a6a doubich ib doubha, shsawatlich ana bafhamm?? kil ma t7awil it9eer 6ayba wiyach tgoumeen ou taglbeenn?!? 3aiiibb ..

Tears filles her eyes, she has never seen this side of Mohammed.

Noura: bas wallaa el3atheem enta shift ib 3ainik tit7arash ib rifeejiik..

I felt that there was something wrong, so i paused il song but i was pretending that i was listening to my ipod.

Mohammed: cham mara agouliichh elbent mo chethy!!! e7tarmay nafsich 3aaddd !!!

She got up and ran to the elevators.

I love him. He's amazing walla. Low shno edafi3 3ani ou e3arifni 3adil ou ma yertha ay a7ad imisni ib kilma 7ata low ana kint ghal6ana idafi3 3ani bas ba3dain he talks to me alone and he tells me where i went wrong ou ena ma a3eedha ou ana alabeela kel ely yabee la2ana wallaa he's once in a life time. 3omri ma ra7 alga mithla, la ib jamala wala ib i7sasa wala ib adaba wala ib kalama il 7ilo. bas still no one is perfect.

Jawan: shfeek?

Mohammed: khalas Jawan malich shighel feeha khaleeha ou 7igreeha, ihya trou7 yimeen ou entay yisaar walla mali khilg 3awar raas.

and he walked away.

Inzain why couldn't he wait 7ag radi?? enzain khal a3arif shisalfa?!
misha 3ani ou raaa7 , he went out again wiya rab3a. I sat there not knowing what just went on, ya3ni just tell me.

I called him bas ma rad 3alay. Akeed wiya rab3a ma ra7 iridd.

3abaly i did something wrong. wallaa 7aiil za3alt ou thaag khilgy laish ma irid 3alay ou ib bbm 7ata ma irid ma3ana he reads my msg bas ma yrid. I sat there in the lobby waiting for him, i didn't even move an inch since the last time i saw him. ga3adt an6ira lain iyee. mama and khalati yaw and noura, but noura had her eyes on the floor she didn't look me in the eye. they were going out bas i wanted to wait for mohammed.

A while after he came back.
He saw me there and he knew really well that i will be waiting for him.

He looked me in the eye. When he saw me he smiled. I couldn't help but smile. He was by the door talking on the phone, shway chan iyee...


Mohammed: yalla goomay

Jawan: wain??

Mohammed: imshay wiyay malich shighel.

Jawan: laa la mohammed ou mama .. tawni agoulaha mabi ayi wiyach ou al7een a6la3 wiyakk??

Mohammed: ma 3alaiich tawni 7achaiit'ha galatly mabeeha teg3ad brou7ha 6ali3haa..

Jawan: ok then.. bas shar6 you tell me wain!

He pulled me out of the hotel qasban 3alaii , bas akeed i didn't fight back cause i really wanted to go with him.. alone. that was the first time me and 7amady go out all alone. with no one else!

We were walking around the streets quietly ..

Jawan: mohammed sh9aar?

and he told me everything.

By that i got mad, ya3nie shno wa7da itgoul 3ani chethy?

Mohammed: bas adry she was making all of that up bas 3ashan mi7tara minich wallaa ..

Jawan: 7amadyy ma 7ibhaaa

Mohammed: la t7ibeenha.. waaay 3al dalaa333;*

I blushed.
Kamalna walking so, ta3abt then we sat on these benches. ga3deen and i was looking at the stars with my head up !
I could feel his eyes on me, i looked at him and my eyes landed on his. His eyes were sparkly chethy. 7aiil kan eyanin. Mashallah his eyes eyaninoun. I can't even describe them. 7ada eshawiigg..

Jawan: shfeek??

Mohammed: ma7ad galich mn gabel inich 7ilwa.??

Jawan: mmmm, embalaa wayiiiidd;p

Mohammed: hehehe, 3ad 9digaww.

Jawan: a7ad galik inik you're the most attractive guy on earth??

Mohammed: akeed, every single girl on earth galat hal 7achii..

Jawan: heeeeeeeeyy...

and i hit him on his shoulder softly.

Mohammed: tghareen??

Jawan: ofcourse laaaa..

Mohammed: laa walla??

Jawan: ehh wallaa

Mohammed: 3ad walla ana aghar 3alaich 7ata mn il hawa.

and by that sentence he kissed my cheek.

I was hypnotized.

Jawan: i love you.

and i hugged him.

Mohammed: walla ana akthar.

When i hugged him its like i was in another world. everything in him is different but in a speacial way. Hi scent, his hug, his laugh, his kiss, and even the way he talks. its like he was made for me;*

I never wanted to let go, ever.


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You'll Always Be A Part Of Me 13:*

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Previously.......


Jawan: Mohammed bityanini;(((



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Mohammed: asiiiffff

and he kissed the crown of my head.

He was all sweet agaiin.

Jawan: yyyy alf shakhsiya in one minute:p

Mohammed: entaii wala shay 3ajbich?!?;p

Jawan: khalass khalaass khalick sweett, ma3ana you're always sweet bas la t6afirnii;**

Mohammed: mn 3youuniiii...

Mama called and said that she wanted us ena enrou7laha in a restuarant, she was with Khalti. Mohammed said that he would take us to them and then he would go out with his friends.

We got there, and guess who was there too...


















NOUUUUUUUUUUUUURAAAAAAA!!!!:@





Laiish laiman everything's right things have to go wrong? why ?
Salamt 3ala omha and when i came to her she stood up

Noura: famous jawann *dirty look*

Jawan: hii

and i looked up at Mohammed.

Shtabii hathii?? Famous Jawan? Na3am shtabeen?? sh3alaiichh?? why the hell did you come???!!:@

Mohammed smiled and excused himself.

Noura was acting so sweet jidam mama and khalatie. Khalisaw they paid for the check and everyone was ahead of us and everytime i try to go next to mama

Mama: haaw Jawan? Noura la tkhaleenha brou7haa gabel kintaw ma titfarigoun..

and i would look at her as in bas khalas.

So, i had to stay with hal 3ila!:)

Noura: so??

Jawan: soo??

Noura: how's mohammed?

Jawan: he's your cousin why don't ask him yourself? wila msaa3 he was right infront of you!?

Noura: you know what i mean *play with her hair and t6ag6ig bel 3ilch* (cheap look)

Jawan: la walla i don't !

Noura: 9iijj ?? then deeray baliichh and by that i mean mni ana;)..

SHNO HAL 7AQARAAAAA?!!@@

Shfeeha hathiii?? mo mn 9ijha 9a7?! Shno arou7 agoul 7ag mama? shagoulaha walla hathi t'hadid?? baghaiit azifha bas 3ashan 7amady i stayed quiet ya3nie laaa!!:@ itbi6 elchabd but what can i do !?

I called 7amady and geltla..

Mohammed: 7abeebtii ma 3alaiich mnha walla bas mi7tara mnich

Jawan: shno mi7tara mni 7amady walla waii33 ma a7ibhaa, shift'ha shgalat?? low mo 3ashanik chan ma sikat wallaa !

Mohammed: 7ayatii 3az shanich bas al7een ana wiya rab3ii, tonight bas arja3 il hotel akalmich ok?!

Jawan: inzain

Mohammed: yalla have fun la tkhaleenha tkhariib 3alaiich wanastiichh ok;*

Jawan: inshallahh;*

We went to the hotel. She was at the same hotel what an amazing thing. Mama and khalatie went upstairs to rest, 7amani and azizan were playing around, and jawa went out with her friends. I was left all alone with Noura. Ya3nie ya nas i hate her can't you see. Bas i shouldn't show her that i care about what she just said or anything cause then she'll have fun. But i have to show that i didn't care.

So, i asked her..

Jawan: what do you mean msaa3?

and yes i realized ba3dain that was a really bad question. why wouldn't i wait for 7amady 3ashan iyee??
ukkhh ya raitny i did bidal ma asma3 kalamha hal bayikh..

Noura: 9adgeenii you know what i meant really well.

Jawan: la walla wath7aayy :D

Noura: adrii ina you're inlove with mohammed and he loves you back and hell yeah you're ina relationship and yeahh others love him too.

Jawan: ok then lets consider what you just said was true, what are you going to do about it? and by others you mean you??

Noura: you'll see;), and yes its me and 9adgeenii when i want something i get it barda mbaridaa..

by that i was furious shtabiie? she loves 7amady 7abeebtii he's mine..

Jawan: 7abeebtii get what you want 3ala kaif kaifichh !!

*i shortened the convo, wayid kalam ma la daa3ii*

Finally 7amady came, he wasn't alone he was with 2 friends they went and sat on a couch gbalna. But 7amady came up to us.

7abeebii his eyes were worried cause he can tell that something was wrong with me, and i hate it when i don't get 7agi mn a7ad. Fa 7ail az3al and marat i cry bas itha i didn't do what i should have done. And im doing this all for 7amadii.

Mohammed: shfeekom?

I didn't want to talk so sikat.

Noura: ma feena shay, remembering our old days.

Mohammed: ehh zaiin ashwa..

and they started talking and talking.. i didnt want to know what they were talking about and i didn't really care even though he was talking to Noura.

So, i was listening to my ipod and i can feel that someone is staring, i looked up and it was one of 7amady's friends. He was good looking and ofcourse not good enough as 7amady i thought to myself and i went back to my thoughts.





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Noura: shfttt b3ainiikk, laiman agoulik ma t9adignii !!









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