You'll Always Be A Part Of Me 5:*

I felt my phone vibrating so i picked it up without even knowing whos calling, i was in my sleepy voice! Jawan: alooooo.....: hallaaIt was a guy.Jawan: hallaa mno?...: wa7iidd Jawan: i can tell, baghait shay?...: laa walla bas 7aab at3araaffI closed the line. mno la khulgiick ballahh ??I got up, took a shower, and called tala. I was going to sleep at her house that night. so, i took the stuff that i need and went off to her house.All this time i had mohammed on my mind i was thinking about what to do. i love him i know that i do but i can't do it , if khaled knew what was going on he would kill and ofcourse mohammed too. and i don't want that to happen! his words are all still in my head i didn't know what to say. i wanted to send him a message but no way. mmm, should i tell tala about what happened last night?no i don't think so. she won't let me talk to him for my own good! But what else can i do?My phone vibrated, it was a message from an unknown number.Jawan, shda3wa tsideena ib wayhi? tara walla intay 3ajbatny meta ma fethaytay give me a call;) It was the same number that called me an hour ago.I deleted the message cause i really wasn't intrested in knowing who it was or what he wants.So, i arrived at Tala's, went in up to her room. she was on the phone and i heard her say "7abeeebii" okk???;sTala: mmm, oh hii meta yaitay entay?Jawan: the question is who's "7abeebii"? Tala: what 7abeebii?? pshht tha7akteenii ! so, shno tabeen ghada??Jawan: good one in changing the subject ! Tala: haaw la shako changing the subject?? Jawan: then who were you talking to? shda3wa ya3nie if you were in a relationship laish ma tgouleenlii?? why are you doing it behind my back?Tala: me? i'm the one who's doing things behind your back ? or is it you?! Jawna: huh shga3da tgouleen?? kel shay entay tadren 3ana ! Tala: yeahh sure then whos barakkk??Jawan: Barakk? whos barak? i never knew a7ad with that name! Tala: yeahhh right ! Jawan: haaaw walla mn siji ga3da akalmich!! ou ras ahalii ini ma 3arif a guy named barak ! Tala: haha?Jawan: wallaa, sadgeeni i wont be lying to you! Tala: then why is badir telling me that?Jawan: and badir is?Tala: haha yeahh and badir is my boyfriend! Jawan: what ou laish ma tgouleenlii?!?!Now i was pissed off shno mn 9ijha laish ya3nie ma tgoulii !! laa ou tith7ack ba3ad, bas wait i remembered she dosen't know that mohammed sent me a message on facebook or even me adding him on msn and talking him, or even mohammed telling me that he loves me, so why do i get so pissed off!! mm, i guess i have to be happy for her Tala: sorry bas i thought you would think that im a bitch or somethingJawan: laa shako i would never do that ! you know what im happy for you !! Tala: haha, sij ?? 3ayal lazim you get to know him he's the most amazing guy in the whole wide world! and i love him i really do * she started blushing* Jawan: oooohhh !!! you're growing up *and i hugged her* Tala: hahaha:pJawan: and barak is?Tala: yeaah badir told me that his friend barak told him ena ekalmich entay ou youre so in love! Jawan: me ?? yeahh sure elmohem ma 3alaina mna kaifaa khal ewalyy ! khaleed e3eesh eldour and yeah tell that badir that im not talking to his friend this one barak ! Tala: ok:D I thought of it now that i knew that she talks to a guy she would be ok with me talking to mohammed and telling her what happened so she can help me out a little.. Jawan: anddd yeaah i have to confess something to you!! Tala: spill and i told her everything from the message on facebook till mohammed giving me his number. Tala: yy eyanin hal walad mashallahh walla ya bakhtich that a guy like him loves youu ! Jawan: and badir?? Tala: badiiirr ghaiirrrr;)Jawan: ok, now tell me shasawii?? Tala: hmm , mabi agoulich send him a message that you love him too because that will lead to me kharibing you, and i dont want to tell you don't because then you'll miss the best parts of life;pMy phone was ringing and it was that number again, and i told Tala about him she said to forget about him but he kept calling and calling! so i got fed and answered.Jawan: aloo...:3ash mn sima3 hal souut! Jawan: mno?...: ismy barak ! I closed the line.Jawan: it's the barak ! Tala: tkalmeena? Jawan: yal thakiya agoulich i dnt ! mn wainla raqmi??? Tala: ma 3alaiich now i'll tell badir 3ashan ekalma ena ekhaleech ib 7aliich! Jawan: 7abeebtii thank you what i do without youu ! The day is almost to an end and still i didn't answer mohammed. i didn't know what to do ! i feel so guilty rght now ! i really do , making him wait all these years until he found me and then when he does i don't do what i'm supposed to do... Tala and i kept on thinking of what to do, if i would send him a msg i would lose my family trust and reputation and i many other things, and when i don't i will lose 7amady my one and only 7amady the guy that i have always dreamt of ! and i really dont want to lose him! ahhhh what to do?!!