You'll Always Be A Part Of Me 10:*

Previously...


He was so perfect that i didn't even think that one day he'll forget about me...


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Days passed by and we became even closer. I got used to sleeping and that his voice was the last voice that i heard. and when i wake up his voice was the first. I love him i couldn't get enough of him or his love. He was so caring.

When i knew him it was the beginning of summer and now we're in the middle of summer. Ma kan egouli abi ashoufich, kent ashoufa bas bel 9edfa etha we are both going to the same place.

That day I was talking to Mohammed..

Mohammed: haa ma ra7 tsafroun this summer?

Jawan: emm madrii walla you?

Mohammed: ehh benrou7 london..

Laaaaa;(( i'll miss him!

Jawan: ohh sij? have fun!

Mohammed: 7abebti;*

Ahhhhh, that was the first time he called me 7abeebbtii and i loved it!

Jawan: hala?

Mohammed: 3endi lich surprise!

Jawan: shnoo??

Mohammed: ba3daiinn

Jawan: laaaaa,,, ma 7iib chethy goolii plss;*

Mohammed: laa mani mgayiliichh

Jawan: yy zain kaifickk

Mohammed: hehe..

Jawan: ma t'tha7ik tara;p

Kan e7ib e6afirni.. y7ib laiman eshoufnii imbawza then he makes it up to me;* i love him;*********

Then mom called me so i closed the phone..

Jawan: halla mama?

Mama: tara bensafiirrr

Jawan: waiihh mama faj2itich ?? ;p

Mama: yallahh zain emshay benru7 london ma3a Khaltich Fayza ( I don't know itha i mentioned her ib the other posts bas i'll name her Fayza :p and yeahh she's mohammed's mom)

Jawan: shnoo???

Mama: haaw shfeeechh? khaltich fayza!! om 7amoudddii ma tathkireenhom?

Jawan: embala embala mama, yalahh meta?

Mama: next week enshallahh .

Jawan: okkkkkkk * with the widest smile *

I run up to my room and called Mohammed.

Mohammed: wanasa 9a7??

Jawan: ahhhhh enta kent tadrii ??

Mohammed: ehhh that was my surprise .. gelt 7ag omie ena she calls your mom 3ashan tyoun wiyana !

Jawan: ahhhhh 7abeebii thank youu;**

Jawan:
"abaiiihh ana shgellt?? fashla fashla fashlaaaaa!!!!!;$$"

Mohammed:
"ohhh galat 7abeebiii !!!! ahhhhh 3alaiihhaaa wallaaa a7ibhhaaa;** !!! "

Jawan: ahh sorry

Mohammed: shno sorry? gouleehaaa.. mno 7abeebich?

Jawan: mabiii ;p

Mohammed: *he whispered* 7abeebtii

ahhhhhhhhhhh athouuubbbbbbbb;*
everytime he does that i get butterflies in my stomach and until now i get them!

Jawan: hmm??

Mohammed: mno 7abeebiichh?

Jawan: entaaa

Faj2a he got back to normal ..

Mohammed: uhhhh khaloud ba3ad shway adig 3alaiik il walda tabeenii

Jawan: haha;p okk!! yallahh bye

Mohammed: byee

I was so excited wanasa! basafir wiya mohammed, 7amadyy;**

So, i went to my mom took her credit card and went off with Jawa to buy clothes. I bought alot of clothes. But then Jawo zafatni cause we're going to LONDON and i'm buying clothes from here. Shasawii i wanted to look good when 7amady is around;((

7ata mama zafatniii .. bas ya3ne it's 7amady!!!;*

I couldn't wait for the day of our flight to London, i was over excited 7ata mama staghribat! This week went by slowly until Sunday came which was the day of our flight ...

I got up and dressed up and off to the airport..








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enjoy;*

long enough??

cause i noticed my posts are short!

A7tajik ana;*

I'll be posting another post tonight Insh'Allah, but I love this song I know it's old but I love it. Every single word has a lot of meaning.

And here's a link to it

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EoUslNgQygE

and Ahlam's voice Mash'Allah makes it even better!

Here are the words:


Walla a7tajik ana...

Khaliik ib janbii gireebb

Ou en 7asal shay bainana 3an 7ayatiie la tigheebbb...

Ana mn ba3dak atouuh ou 3alamii ba3dak yitheee333..

Tikhtili6 3indi il wijooh el3aduu yesba7 sideeggg..

tadri yal galb al7anoon enta belnesba lii aish?

ou ana ba3dik kaif akoouun ? ou laih a7is? ou laih a3eeshh?

yali shift a7laamii feehhh, ou eltegaiiitt ib a7la janahh

ad3uu rabii ou artijeehh rabii la ta7rimnyy laaa mnaaaaaa..

ad3uu rabii ou artijeeh rabi la ta7rimnii mnaaa.

low tihib il dinya ree7 ou yintihi kel elzemaan ou yesba7 el 3alam jireee77

ana ib edaiik ib amannn...

galbakk el bait el kibeer ely thalalni ib wrouuudaaa ..

ou a9ba7 el 7ilm el akheer sa3ba ab3iidd 3an 7douuuddaaa..

ou a9ba7 el 7ilm el akheer sa3ba ab3iidd 3an 7douuuddaaa..



Walla a7tajiik ana- Ahlaamm;*

tyanin mo sa7??:p

You'll Always Be A Part Of Me 9:*

Hello, I just came back sorry for not posting;*



ehh and 3eedkum Mubarak mo2akharannn:p:***







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Previously...





Mohammed: laiish tawich itdizeen msg mo mn awal?



Jawan: mm , cause khift ena you would tell khaloud or somthing.. madrii bas kint khayyfa ya3nie you're a family friend but i don't knooww!



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Mohammed: ukkhh la shda3waaa!! barou7 agoul 7ag khaloudd!! laaaa laaaa



Jawan: madrii 3abalii ya3niieee



Mohammed: ya3nie 7ata law barou7 agoula ba6la3 ana el ghal6an mo entayy!



Jawan: mmm



Mohammed: mmm...



Faj2a there was silence yimkin 2 whole minutes bas ga3da ou i hear him breathing.



Mohammed: Jawan?



Jawan: hmm??



Mohammed: tara walla jad a3izich 7ail ou mn galb, bas adri ina ya3nie ana wiyach n3arif ba3ath mn gabel ou mn wa7na yahal ou chethy ou ena akeed taghayarna 3an a7na shloun kena gabel fa akeed wayid ashya2 feech taghayirat.. ou i will understand etha ma terta7aili mn awal shay cause haman ana maybe e9eer 3endi nafs elshay, so ayshay ib gulbich pls gouleelii la tkhisheen 3anii . mashy?



Jawan: sure and you too??



Mohammed: Inshallah.



At that time i loved him even more. ya3nie seriously do you think fee guys these days that will wait for a girl laiman ihya terta7la? fee bas mo wayid ya3nie shay kilish mo 7ilu etha el wa7da enghasbat ou ma gdirat etsawi shay aw ena she stands up for herself. ou ena ma tegdar tet7acha cause he's a guy and she dosen't want to lose him.



So we decided that sowalif 7ob ma 7ob we'll leave them 7ag after but from now on we'll catch up on everything. So, we started chatting about our old days. He's so fun talking to and I didn't notice the time until it was 2 am. So, we said our goodbyes...

Mohammed: yallah t9bi7een 3ala khaiirr

Jawan: ou enta mn ahalaa

Mohammed: bachir when you wake up call me

Jawan: yeaahh suree..

Mohammed: ou ayshay ib balich chethy ya6rii ou you want to talk to a7ad about it i'll be here;)

Jawan: thank youu, and enshallahh youu too !

Mohammed: yallaahh byee;*

Jawan: byee

I closed the line and i had the widest smile on my face, the feeling was amazing. You know when finally get what you've always wished for and waited for, thats the most amazing feeling.

Our relationship became stronger in weeks and i didn't think i would get along with him this fast but i really did which showed that i really do love him. He was the most amazing guy, esawi ayshay bas 3ashan ra7ti walla ou ma y7ib ena yghasibni 3ala shay. Ena he calls me bas mo 7inch as other guys. He calls and asks etha mashghoula aw la ou etha i'm out he dosen't talk to me he says just go have fun ou laiman tkhalseen call me. walla 9ij ya rait all of the guys just like him!

He was so perfect that i didn't even think that one day he'll forget about me...


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enjoy;*

maybe another post tonight;)

sorry cause it's short;*

You'll Always Be A Part Of Me 8:*

Previously ...


+0096599******
I love you too ;*

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Jawan:
"i can't believe i just sent him a msg!! god what will happen if my parents know or even khaloud or jawo!! aabaiihh laa .. bas waiit this is what i want and i really do have feelings for mohammed and im not playing and the way mohammed talked to me i guess he's serious too.. isn't he? and he even knows my parents and brother ! he won't break my heart .. he won't !"

As i was in my own world i felt my phone vibrating ..


Incoming call..
+0096599******

Mohammed's side:

Mohammed:
"Offfff wallaa etha Jawan ba6eer mn elfar7a .. bas la akeed jawan ma ghairha ily ib galbi ou ib bali ma ghairha ely 3a6ait'ha raqmi fa akeed ihya.. la akeed ihya bas it7ibnyy???? ooookkkhh wallaa inii qawiii .. ahhhh 3alaiiicch bassss akkhhhh ;* wallaa inha btithba7ni nathrat'ha t3athib elwa7id ham tkhadir ou kilaha 3ala ba3th'ha walla inha ma tenwi9iifff . ou t7ibnyyy???!!!!! akhhh bas akhhhh!!!!!!"

He was waiting for Jawan to pick up..

Jawan:

I picked it up, i didn't even think cause mohammed wasn't something you would think about he was just perfect that you would do anything just to please him.

Jawan: ..

Mohammed: aloo?

AKKHHH 9OUTAA:*

Jawan: aloo!

Mohammed: Jawannn..

Jawan: ehh

Mohammed: t7ibeenii??

I didn't answer..

Mohammed: *he took a deep breath* t7ibeeni?

Jawan: ehhhh

Mohammed: goulehhaa... abii asma333ich itgoulenhaa!

It was him. I couldn't believe it after all these years.. !
It was wrong what i was doing but still i love him i really do! and i don't regret anything that i'm going to say or do. won't i?

Jawan: a7ibiiikk

Mohammed: akkkkkhhhhhhhhh ou ana amout 3alaiichh;*. kint na6ir hal yoom mn awal yoom shiftich fee tadreen?? tadreen enich entai aghla insaana ib hal denya? ou ena ma7ad yiswaach! ou enshallah ana bakoun gad 7ubich ly;*

Jawan: ehehe, enshallahh;*

Mohammed: tara mo m9adigg:p

Jawan: ehhh wala ana:p

Mohammed: laiish tawich itdizeen msg mo mn awal?

Jawan: mm , cause khift ena you would tell khaloud or somthing.. madrii bas kint khayyfa ya3nie you're a family friend but i don't knooww! //


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enjoyy;)

until next timee;**

You'll Always Be A Part Of Me 7:*

Previously...

Guys Table:

Mohammed: enta sh3arifak feeha??



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Barak: haa?? a3ariff mnoo??

Mohammed: mo enta etgoul ena hathy jawan al-flani??

Barak: ehhh??

Mohammed: ehh shdarakk??

Barak: thaak elyoom kent 6ali3 wiya wa7id mn elshabab ou ga3id egoul enha thigeela ou wayid shayfa nafs'ha 3ala wala shay.. ma3ana ya3nie khosh bintt!

Mohammed: laaa teg3ad ta7kum ou enta ma t3arif lawadim, int ou hathaakk !

Barak: enzain ou ana shgiltt??? bas khosh bintt!!

Badir: ooh bas shabab a7na 6al3een nistanaass!!

Mohammed:
"zaiin ashwa 3abaly ba3addd.. ashwaa ou ana agoul jawan etsawi chethy? akeed laa, hmm , bas laish lail7een ma dazatly msg!?? offff walla inii a7ibha laish ma tefham? 6a3 sh7alat'ha !!! bas 3ad ana khal askit zaiinn"
*this is mohammed thinking:p

Back to the girls:

Jawan: khangoom bas khalas malaiiit , shiba3t, banfijirrrrrr mn kithir ma qathni hathaakk !!! laish ekhiz??? laiishh?? ou laish hathak lail7een ma salammm laiishh???? hmmm ou tsadgeen shiba3t la2anii shift mohammed ahhhh !!!! ;**

Tala: walla madrii laiish ! entay tadreen laiish? laish ga3da agoul laish?? ou laish entay m3alga 3ala laish? ou laish khalaiteeni at3alag ib laisshh? ifff bas!!! :p ou ana mn badiiiirrr ahhhh !!!

Jawan: tadreen malich hadaf bel 7ayatt??!!!

Tala: osh! yallah khanrou7 !

So, they paid the check and were on their way to the car until Mohammed gets the courage to come up to Jawan and say hi!

Mohammed: Jawann

Jawan: Mohammed?

Mohammed: e, shlounichh?

Jawan: el7amdela bkhair enta?

Mohammed: el7amdela!

Lafait wayhi wila el ekhit Talo etkhiz!

Jawan: and yeaah this is my friend Tala..

Tala: hii

Mohammed: hallaa tala, 3ad walla ya bakhtich 6al3a wiya jawan!!

Tala: hehe ehh walla!!

Jawan:
"Did i just blush??? abaiih la fashla mo jidama!! haaaaah afahell !!!! AHHH HE SAID HIIIII! WANASAAAAA 9a7? SALAM 3ALAIII !!!!:D Pheeeeeeeeewwwwww ya3nie he's not mad? allahh ya3nie il jleel el 7aya barak ma gala shay ? ehh ashkaraa! ya3nie mo za3lan 3alaii allaahh ya sa3di ana il laylaa:p send him a msg or not? "

So we said our goodbyes no big deal salam 9a7?? hell no!!

I got into the car with the biggest smile and ofcourse Tala was texting "Badir" and yeah she talked to him about "The Barak" and he said he'll handle it ! He really did:D he did wow walla Badir kubar ib 3aini 7abaiitaa ya3nie wagaaf barak 3ind 7ada el7amdela!!!

We arrived home , watched a movie... Tala and i didn't really talk about what happened she didn't even mention a thing! and i didn't bring up the subject so we kept quiet cause mala da3i ya3nie 6ool youmna netkalam 3an guyys?

Althouuughhhh he's the most amazing guy in THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD:p! lail7een ma atkalam 3anaaa:p baini ou bain nafsii ;) hehee:p

After that i went back home... straight to my laptop and signed in and i went and changed my clothes and got back to my laptop.. he wasn't online.

Jawan:
"laaaa;( 7asaffaaa he's not online!!! i send him a msg? la fashlaaa ! akhaaafff ou etha khalood dara wila maama wila baba?? wila jawoooo??? laaaa!!;( maabii shasawiii?? :( bas i really want to send him a msg !! "

So, i gave up and decided to send a msg .. but what to say ?

Yeah and i memorized his number;)
everytime i write something i erase it .. ifffff shaktib!??


and i settled down on this thing which is big, which i really knew was wrong! bas it was the thing that i really wanted! i really wanted to do something for me , myself and without anyone knowing i wanted it to be my secret, my divine secret;*

+0096599******
I love you too ;*


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enjoy;*
till next time;)

It's me!

It's me always.be:*!
Laa mo bayga posts a7ad:p
and yeahhh i have no idea what's wrong with my account! so i opened a new account ou enshallah i'll be posting daily;)

pleaaaaseee comment!!!:****

and yeah about the mess in my posts:p hehe, mm what can i do mali khulg i put spaces cause i copy pasted them mn www.will-alwaysbe.blogspot.com my other blog bas i have no idea why it's not working so if you want to read the first few posts better than they are in this blog you can just go check it out in the other!

thank you;***

You'll Always Be A Part Of Me 6:*

We woke up the next morning, wondering where to go!Tala and i weren't these kind of girls who would to go out alot as in avenues, slider, or places where you see everyone you know! ya3nie i hate it mo 7ilow kel ma namshi ensalim ensalim! ok ya3nie wanasa we see people ou chethy bas ena mo kel mara you want to see them, la ou the faces don't change kela nafs elnas! ;p so, we love to hang out at home and stuff but at the same time we have alot of adventures ya3nie 7ada wanasa bas akeed once in a while we go to other places and ofcourse lazim endour bel jam3iyat or endour bel sayara mn man6aqa laiih man6aqa its more fun bas still ham enrou7 other places;p!yeahh and about my family... hmm mom and dad are always out of town ya3ne baitna 7ousa ma lazim ako a7ad so wanasa;p, jawa ya 6al3a ya her friends are over and stuff and ofcourse khaloud is rayal elbait;p so ayshay ensaweeh ohwa ely ezifnaa bas ena he's so sweet! the most amazing brother in the whole universe walla t7isoun wanasa you have an elder brothers ely ekhaaf 3alaiich ou ena ma7ad esaweelich shay cause as known he's your brother! and everyone respects him wallaa khosh walaad ya3nie ma ra7 akhleehh yakhith ay wa7da cause seriously he deserves the best:p!and yeaah there's always Santi, Kem, Gloria, and Ali our maids and driver walla 7adhom nekta lazim you meet them!:pback to the story ..As Tala told me yesterday she talked to Badir about Barak and he said he'll talk to him 3ashan ma egarib yami ou chethy! then we decided to go to slider and yeah el7abeeba Tala has to tell Badir and Badir has to come and Badir has to bring Barak with him which i find out that Badir and Barak are friends with Mohammed:) wow! what an amazing coincidence ha?:)we sat in our table outside it was hot cause it was summer, so the fans were on my face and the table infront of me was badir barak and mohammed, you can tell that they were talking about us ! and yeah badir and mohammed are not that kind of guys ely yet7achoun eb banat elnas as in "ana akalim hathy " wila ana akalim flana alflani" no they won't do that cause mithel yadroun ena mithel ma ysawoun eb banat elnas wa7id weld 7aram beyi esawi ib ahalhom, 9a7?!jawan; malat 3alaiichhtala; haha laish?jawan; ya3nie wayid mistansa? shal wanasa ballahh barak and mohammed akhir shay e3arfoun ba3ath brou7a barak egoul ena i know him mabi egouul jidaam mohammed laaaaaaaaaaaa;(tala; la la enshallah he wontjawan; waii3 enshallah mo chethy ashkara they talk about us !tala: 3adi they have to act normal jidam ba3atth!!!This time mohammed didn't even think of saying hi! laiishh?? madrii ! yimkin cause ana ma salamt 3alaiih?? la la shda3wa 7ada laa, mm yemkin za3lan 3ashan i didnt send him a msg , laa laa ofcourse la aw la7thaaaaa yimkin 3ashan barak hal khayis gala akalmaaa;( laaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!Jawan: tala pls tell me ena barak didnt tell mohammed what he told badiirr !Tala: barak didnt tell mohammed what he told badirJawan: waii3 chub im serious here!Tala: enzaiin ya3nie ana shdaranii !Jawan: yyy la la walla khayfaaa!!! mabiii !! i love 7amady ou he loves me maaabii ekhariib 3alayy barakkk;(Tala: entay bel awal dezay msg ba3dain ta3alay kalmeenii !!

Guys Table:

Mohammed: enta sh3arifak feehhaa?

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You'll Always Be A Part Of Me 5:*

I felt my phone vibrating so i picked it up without even knowing whos calling, i was in my sleepy voice! Jawan: alooooo.....: hallaaIt was a guy.Jawan: hallaa mno?...: wa7iidd Jawan: i can tell, baghait shay?...: laa walla bas 7aab at3araaffI closed the line. mno la khulgiick ballahh ??I got up, took a shower, and called tala. I was going to sleep at her house that night. so, i took the stuff that i need and went off to her house.All this time i had mohammed on my mind i was thinking about what to do. i love him i know that i do but i can't do it , if khaled knew what was going on he would kill and ofcourse mohammed too. and i don't want that to happen! his words are all still in my head i didn't know what to say. i wanted to send him a message but no way. mmm, should i tell tala about what happened last night?no i don't think so. she won't let me talk to him for my own good! But what else can i do?My phone vibrated, it was a message from an unknown number.Jawan, shda3wa tsideena ib wayhi? tara walla intay 3ajbatny meta ma fethaytay give me a call;) It was the same number that called me an hour ago.I deleted the message cause i really wasn't intrested in knowing who it was or what he wants.So, i arrived at Tala's, went in up to her room. she was on the phone and i heard her say "7abeeebii" okk???;sTala: mmm, oh hii meta yaitay entay?Jawan: the question is who's "7abeebii"? Tala: what 7abeebii?? pshht tha7akteenii ! so, shno tabeen ghada??Jawan: good one in changing the subject ! Tala: haaw la shako changing the subject?? Jawan: then who were you talking to? shda3wa ya3nie if you were in a relationship laish ma tgouleenlii?? why are you doing it behind my back?Tala: me? i'm the one who's doing things behind your back ? or is it you?! Jawna: huh shga3da tgouleen?? kel shay entay tadren 3ana ! Tala: yeahh sure then whos barakkk??Jawan: Barakk? whos barak? i never knew a7ad with that name! Tala: yeahhh right ! Jawan: haaaw walla mn siji ga3da akalmich!! ou ras ahalii ini ma 3arif a guy named barak ! Tala: haha?Jawan: wallaa, sadgeeni i wont be lying to you! Tala: then why is badir telling me that?Jawan: and badir is?Tala: haha yeahh and badir is my boyfriend! Jawan: what ou laish ma tgouleenlii?!?!Now i was pissed off shno mn 9ijha laish ya3nie ma tgoulii !! laa ou tith7ack ba3ad, bas wait i remembered she dosen't know that mohammed sent me a message on facebook or even me adding him on msn and talking him, or even mohammed telling me that he loves me, so why do i get so pissed off!! mm, i guess i have to be happy for her Tala: sorry bas i thought you would think that im a bitch or somethingJawan: laa shako i would never do that ! you know what im happy for you !! Tala: haha, sij ?? 3ayal lazim you get to know him he's the most amazing guy in the whole wide world! and i love him i really do * she started blushing* Jawan: oooohhh !!! you're growing up *and i hugged her* Tala: hahaha:pJawan: and barak is?Tala: yeaah badir told me that his friend barak told him ena ekalmich entay ou youre so in love! Jawan: me ?? yeahh sure elmohem ma 3alaina mna kaifaa khal ewalyy ! khaleed e3eesh eldour and yeah tell that badir that im not talking to his friend this one barak ! Tala: ok:D I thought of it now that i knew that she talks to a guy she would be ok with me talking to mohammed and telling her what happened so she can help me out a little.. Jawan: anddd yeaah i have to confess something to you!! Tala: spill and i told her everything from the message on facebook till mohammed giving me his number. Tala: yy eyanin hal walad mashallahh walla ya bakhtich that a guy like him loves youu ! Jawan: and badir?? Tala: badiiirr ghaiirrrr;)Jawan: ok, now tell me shasawii?? Tala: hmm , mabi agoulich send him a message that you love him too because that will lead to me kharibing you, and i dont want to tell you don't because then you'll miss the best parts of life;pMy phone was ringing and it was that number again, and i told Tala about him she said to forget about him but he kept calling and calling! so i got fed and answered.Jawan: aloo...:3ash mn sima3 hal souut! Jawan: mno?...: ismy barak ! I closed the line.Jawan: it's the barak ! Tala: tkalmeena? Jawan: yal thakiya agoulich i dnt ! mn wainla raqmi??? Tala: ma 3alaiich now i'll tell badir 3ashan ekalma ena ekhaleech ib 7aliich! Jawan: 7abeebtii thank you what i do without youu ! The day is almost to an end and still i didn't answer mohammed. i didn't know what to do ! i feel so guilty rght now ! i really do , making him wait all these years until he found me and then when he does i don't do what i'm supposed to do... Tala and i kept on thinking of what to do, if i would send him a msg i would lose my family trust and reputation and i many other things, and when i don't i will lose 7amady my one and only 7amady the guy that i have always dreamt of ! and i really dont want to lose him! ahhhh what to do?!!

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Jawan:ehh tfathal gouul ..I knew what was going to happen i was scared i didn't know how react!Mohammed:mm, madryy shloun agoulich bas walla 9ij entay ma t7iseen???Jawan:ma7is?;sMohammed:ehhh tadreen cham mara ana agi6 naqzaat akalmich 3adil agoulich kalam 7ilow agoulich 7achi ou entaay wala 3al baaal !!! ou kela tsaween rou7ich ma tifhimeen laiishh???OK?!Jawan:tara ana mo fahmaa! ;s shetgouuull?Mohammed:shouuffaiii shlouun hal 3aba66!!!! yuba ana a7ibiiiicchh !!!Then i paused and i was so confused seriously ga3id ezifny ou egouly a7ibiichh??wallaa widi agoula i love you too bas khaloud ekhoy he's his friend khalti shaikha my mom's friend! Jawooo ma tadrii 3an shay !! laaa i can'ttMohammed:Jawan a7acheech anaa!!Jawan:yeahh wiyaakkk!! i love you too akeed!!!Mohammed:laaa mo as a friend wala as a brother much more than that ! \Jawan:shloun ya3nie?;sMohammed:Jawannn A7IBIICCHHH !!! tadreeen ana ma awa6in shay isma laptop ou msn ou hal sowalif ya bint ana ashbickk bas 3ashan ashoufich shlunich ou shakhbarich ou entay shimsawiyaaa!!Abaiiiihhh i lovee himm !! widii agoulaa 7ata aanaa bass no waayy !!Mohammed:walla inyy a3iziich mn awal yoom shiftich ou ana bas afakir feech 7ata ou a7na sghaar wallaa kentay elwa7eeda ely tifhimeenii ou kel shay bas faj2a mishaitay ou ma gemna nshoufiich laiishh?!?!Jawan:well 7ata enta ma kint mawjouudd mohammed.Mohammed:waiin ballaahh adawriich gouleelii?? as2al 3anich kel ma ashouf a7ad e3arfich w asalim 3alaiich ou entai 7ata wala yoom fakartay enich tis2ileen 3ani 7ata low so2all??! laiishh? lich ma3aza 3endii ghair 3an kel el banat laiman ashoufiich wallaa ma tadreen shi9eerr feenii entay ghalya walla ghalya bas entay laish ma tqadreenn???Jawan:laish ya3nie you're making me feel that i'm the one that has to feel guilty ib this situation?? mohammed i didn't leave plus you're a guy and i'm a girl ! ou i'm sorry foug kel hatha t3arif ahalii ou khasatan ekhoyy khaliiddd tadrii low yadrii shisawi feenii?Mohammed:ehhh!!! mo agoulich as2al 3aniich !! agoulich asalim 3alaiich itgouleeli you were BUSY! kalam ma ydish el 3agel !!!I started tearing upp.Jawan:Mohammed momkin ma tzifnyy???:s la tig3ad t7asisny ana ghila6tt !! ;sMohammed:Jawan ana asiif walla asiiff, bas pls fihmeenii wallaaa a7ibiich walla shareech ou walla mo qasdi shay ! bas pls qadri mawqify ana ba3aaadd!!WALLAA ANAA AMOOTTT 3ALAIICKK BA3aAAADDDD:( ! bas i can''tt!!! ou ahalyy???i never got into a relationship ma 3endi chethy sowaliff!! :( shasawiii??!!! bas i love him!!! yy he's the most amazing guy on earth wallaa i'm so guilty kan yis2aall 3anii laish ma egoulolii??;sMohammed:Jawan walla 7adii mista3yeell al7een, lazim amshy bas wallaa allah shahiiddd ib m3azitich ib gablii ou shloun akhaaf 3alaiich ou a7ibiichh !! ahhh bas low tadreen entay shno bel nesba lyy!! hatha raqmi pls abi radich 99****** , yalla byyee;*and by that he signed out.I cried myself to sleep not knowing what i want and what waits for me tomorrow.

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From Mohammed AlFlaniTara wilahtt 3alaich;* I didn't believe my eyes. I read it over and over again, I checked the name and it was him, saw his picture and it was HIM! I ran to Jawa's room with my laptop and i threw it infront of her.Jawa: shno?Jawan: igrayJawa: hahaa, mohammed ma ghaira? I nodded.Jawa: wild khalti Shaikha?Jawan: eeee:DJawa: aham shay elbousa bas, ou wait ana 3indi iyah as a friend in facebook why the hell dosen't he tell me that he misses me aw even talks to me?Jawan: ana ghaiiirrrr, enzain al7een mo hathy salfatnnaaa the point is sharid 3alaiihh?!!?Jawa: la laaa sorry 7abeebtii ma ra7 akharbich ana ba3dain mno m3almich seeda Jawaaa!!! Jawan: la laaaa pls wallaa madryy shagouull !! waii3 yal baykhaa khalseenii !! Jawa: enzain ya ghabiya lail7een ya3nie gouleela i miss you too Jawan: enzain with a kiss wila without? with with ;D Jawa: el7amdila ou elshikir!!! ya3nie byafrigg !???Jawan: ehhh wallaa yal maynouuna yafrig , agoulich shloun? ehh khanagoulich! etha ma3a a kiss that means i really do miss him, bas without a3tibirha mojamala! Jawa: ilbaabbb!! barahhh:)Jawan: waiii33! I ran to my room and sent him a message I miss you too walla;* Minutes later i got a new message:add me in msn m123@hotmail.comJawan: " weehh 6ila3 elwalad khafeeffff, laa maskeen:p"I didn't add him right away just to act as if iny mo mayta 3alaiihh;p, but after 2 minutes i did ba3ad shno khft la he goes offline ou ma ekalimnyy! :pSo, i added him ! Mohammed :Taw ma nawar;* Jawan: Bwjoudiickk mashkour! Mohammed:el3afuuu ma sawaina shayyy ! Faj2a silence! Jawan:"waiii33 laiish mo ga3id yit7acha, hmm shagoulaa???"Mohammed: Jawan shakhbarich?"Shfeee hatha? walla a7is fee shay laish wayiidd rasmiyatt soulif 3adiiil!!!" Jawan: el7amdila, ou enta?Mohammed: bkhaiir allah ysalmich! So, he started talking about college and stuff, how's school? hows everything going! Mohammed:Jawan shda3waa wain ri7tay ou khalaiteenii?I was confused, shqasda?Jawan:laa kanii! still online:pMohammed: laaaaaa:p i mean ina as in gabel! wainich?? walla tadreen gabel ma kan 3indich mobile wala shay ma gemna nshoufich wala shay! ou as'al 3anich mo entay ma tis2ileen 3anyy! Jawan: haha, walla madryy ! im always here , meta sa2alt 3ani?;p well mako a7ad as2al 3anick 3indaa! Mohammed: waiiih kela as'al jana ou khalouuddd 3aniichh! ou agoulihom esalmoun 3alaiichh! Haaww, la jana wala khalid told me ena ohwa esalim 3alayyy !! waiii33 ebi6oun el chabd! akhaaf agoul 7ag khalouud ezifni laish akalma ma3ana ya3nie 3adi he's a friend! Jawan: hehe, ehh sa77 galoulii ;p bas walla sorry i was busy! ya3nie agoula ma galouliii!! Mohammed:busy?! ohhhh Jawan: laa bas now fathya;D GHABAAAA2 shno now fathyaa ifff!! Mohammed: hehe, ya7lailich lail7een you didn't change So, we kept on talking and talking on msn. For more than 2 months. Bas i told Jawa that i just talked to him on facebook and salam 3alayy ou that's it ma kalamta agaiin.Until one day....Mohammed:Jawannn, bagouliich shay walla sij mo gadir akhisha ba3aad!!

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I picked up the phone, " haaaa?!?!?"

"Jawaanii yalla we need to get going, they're waitingggg!!!"
It was Talaa, my best friend which i have been friends with just after i was away from 7amady. She's my soulmate and more than what you think, ofcourse she knows all about 7amady and i even showed her pictures of him from my brother, because ofcourse my brother still sees him but he never came home with him;(. I know so sad!

So, Tala and i were heading off to avenues and meet up with the girls.

I got into Tala's car with her driver and off we went.

"Jawaniii asraaa3 ya3ni mako ab6a222?"

"Ya3ni waay entay shako feenii rou7ay 3any ou ana mashya waraachh, maly khelg amshii wallaa!!"

"ma7ad ghsibaach tyeen"

"3ilaaaa!! kel hatha ou ma ghisabteenii !! mn gaaal??"

Well, it was always like that with me and Tala but ofcourse we still love each other.

I was walking behind her until i saw a figure approaching well a HOT figure! So i sped up and went to Tala.

"Hottie on the way!!" i whispered."Hahah, chathaba? waiin waiin bashouuff!!!" She started looking around in the dumbest way until she bumped into me and i felt something behing me. I turned around and saw the most amazing smile i have ever seen. *yy he's so cute, la7tha im so fimiliar with this face! shayfita mokan ana, hmm madryy abaiih shfeenii ga3da atani7 khal agoulaaa shay!!*"walla sorry ma kan qa9dii 7adii asfaaa walla!" "laa 3adii shda3wa, mo t3eedenha mara thanya:p" he was joking bas i took it seriously. i looked at him with sad eyes he noticed and saiiddd."Yuba atghashmar wiyach shfech 9adagtay ?? 3adi 3adi ma 9ar shay:p" Then faj2a someone pulled me. It was Talo ashwa enha she pulled me 7adii kint mtan7a bel 9bay maskeen! So, i was walking so quickly as if i was running. "laaa al7een tamsheen bser3aa haaa??" shouted Tala trying to catch up.that was when i looked back and saw that guy that i bumped into, staringg ! ok hot guy my bad ma kan qasdii shrayick you stop staring!!!?? "Jawannn, emmm mo chena 7amadiyyy?" "heeeyyyy, entay etgouleen '7amadich' ou i say '7amady' fahmmaa???" "Chill malat 3alaiich 3ad mn zeenaaa" "You're jeloussss!! " I looked back and it was 7amadyy, my 7amadyy, you know this feeling laiman you see some one bas ina you can't believe your eyes. My face lightned up with a huge smile and ofcourse he knew that i recognized him, and he also had this huge smile. My eyes were sparkling i felt that i over reacted. Shda3wa ya3ni? he's just my friend which i haven't seen since ages. But it wasn't just a friend it was 7amady. I knew that i have something for 7amady right there in my heart. He was with a huge group of guys and he started to approach to me while we were waiting for a table in Chocolate Bar. He was coming to me i can tell. I can't feel my heart beating anymore."Guwa" AAAAAH his voice...i just stared."i7iimm""ohh hii" with the biggest smile ever ! shda3wa loosen up! "3aash mn shafiichh Jawann, shlouunich?" "3ashaattt ayamikk, walla ana el7amdila mashy el7aal how are you?!""bkhaiirrr, wallaa kibarttayy:p" "hehee, ehh 7atan entaaa:p""yallah bas 7aabaiitt asaliim 3alaiich tamreen 3ala shay?!"" laa salamtiikk!!" *oooooooooo myyyyyyy 9ayiiirrr eyaniinnnn!*"yallahh ma3a elsalama" "bye" I turned to Tala who was staring at me."abi asariiikh" i whispered to Tala.She had the stupidest smile ever."ehh yallahh 7ata ana" Walla I love her.We told the girls that we had to go and went to the car. As soon as i shut the door....
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! yyyyy zouuuuuuuuuuuuuuqqqqqqqqqqqaaaa" both of us were screaming! *sayir a7la sayir ajmal mn gabel malyouun maraa kel mn shafik temana mnaak enta bas nathraaaaa;** * " Talo eyanin, yyy zouqa" and a tear fell...i looked at Tala who was smiling at me"Jawaanii is in love" "heeyyy laa shakooo!!!!" "abaiih jawaniii walla ebayiiin mn wayhich, entay bas low shayfa shloun you were happyyy so happy! " "it was that obvious, fashlaaaaa""laa 3adii, telgaina ma la7athhh:p" she drop me off at home. i wore my pjs and opened my laptop wela i had a msg on facebook, from Mohammed AlFlani

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Ahhh those were the days:p
t3arfouun ayam gabel ? ayaam el7elwa ely kena ne6la3 weya rabi3 ekhwana ou chethy?;p wow wallaa i love those days!

so, it was jawa, khalid, mohammed, aziz, hamany, and i !
jawa is my sister and khalid is my brother they she was 10 and he was 13! mohammed was 7amady;* he was 13, aziz was 7, hamany was 12 they were brothers! my mom and their mom were best friends! and i'm jawan and i was 9 :pohh yeaah and there was 7amady's cousin NOURA:) she was 9 too!

yeaaah its weekendd!! we get to go out! i was so happy finally i'm getting to see my friends and hang out and things like that!
you know i was so young akeed ma kint afakir in love ou chethy bas still 7amady was different he cared about me he never lets anyone hit me or y6afernii , but if he wants to do it 3ady bas ina akeed 3ala ghashmara ou i liked it mna ohwa:p! akkkh;*

He was just like my brother he never said no! so kena ray7een sharg:p you know ayam shargg!!
we were going to the arcade hathouul ely 3ind elcinema, but all of them wanted to go and watch a movie! ifffff laiishh?!? and i didn't i wanted to play ! so, i was about to cry cause no one wanted to stay with me but akeed my hero is there:p!

Jawan: waiii33 mabi maleeqeen! come with me jawa shda3waa??;( *with teary eyes*

Mohammed: khalaas khalaas ana ag3ad wiya Jawan entaw rou7aw! bas la tabcheeen!! *smile*

Jawan: 7amouudd a7san mnkomm ! maleeqeen !
They all laughed at me!
Well we went there with our nannys, so, the nannys sat on the chairs and me and 7amady played for 2 whole hours:D! he would ALWAYS let me win, he would always make me happy, since that day i couldn't live without him i loved him so much *still as a friend or much as a brother:p*!
Everything was with him! I wouldn't be happy without him!
So, years passed by and we're still close and stuff but there was always NOURA:)! yeaah nouraa, his cousin! laish malgouufa ihya madryy !! :)She would always be in between me and 7amady like god leave us alone! we want to have fun! Well Il7amdilaa 7amady didn't like her too :p he thought that she just wants to show off infront of him and that ihya bas titfalsaf:p!T7sounhaa LAZGAAA:p
bas ba3dain we had to act like we like her you know at the end she's his cousin!!
years are going by and little by little our group broke up, it was just me, Jawa, and Khaloudi well we're brothers and sisters ofcourse we'll be together but 7amany, 7amady, Noura, and Azizan were no where to be seen and we had no news about any of them! where are they? we don't know!why did that happen?!

when we split apart i was 14 and 7amady was 17 and for the others you do the math:p