HOPE. 5

Lulu woke up feeling refreshed. She looked at herself in the mirror, she looked okay. She went downstairs to check on her mother and brother. She wanted to make sure that everything was okay and it was a nightmare. She ran downstairs and found no one. She ran her brother's room, he wasn't there. She ran to her mother's room, she wasn't there.

She started to panic. She ran around the house like a maniac. She opened every single room. She looked all around. No one was there. Not even the maids. She went back to her room with tears in her eyes. She started shaking. She moved around like a crazy person. She didn't know what to do or where to go. She closed her shutters and lights. She went to her bed and covered herself with her cover. She had the pillow on her head. Tears took their way on her cheeks. She started to cry silently. She cried and cried. She cursed herself for not going into the car with her mother. She hated that she was still alive and her loved ones weren't here with her. She wanted to go to them. She wanted to die thats all she wanted.

Lulu: YA RABI LAISH ANA! LAISH !! LAISH !! Abiii amooottt, mabi a3eesh ihni brou7i bedoun omi w ekhoy.. khathait mni oboy ou mno bogali ghairhom w khathait'hom!

She stopped for a second.

Lulu: StarghfarAlla ana shga3da agool?! Hatha RABI !! Ohwa ily igoul a7na meta enrou7! w kel shay fee kheeeraa !! Allaa ma yakhith shay ela ya36eena ely a7san mna ! Shloun agoool chethy !! Ya rabi sami7ni ya rabi ! Ana ilmafrooth ag3ad ad3eelhom ena ydishoun ferdous ila3la inshAllaa ! ga3da agool hatha 7achii shloun!!

Lulu became herself once again. She didn't forget herself. She didn't forget that she was here for a reason. For some reason. She got up and prayed. Prayed that Alla will help her through it all and that he would be by her side. Knowing that he will sure be with her at all times. He will help her through it all.

"الا بذكر الله تطمئن القلوب"

Staghfirat rabha w t3awithat mn iblees. She started to cry once again. She wanted to be strong and have the power to hold herself up. She didn't want to show anyone that she was weak and that she couldn't take care of herself on her own. Even though everyone needs a hand. She insisted to stay alone and make herself proud of who she will be.

Lulu heard a knock on her door.

Lulu: tfathal
Uncle Hamad: Lulu 7abebtii

She got up and hugged him. He remembered the day that her father died. He hugged her and his eyes were full of tears.

Lulu: la khali ma nabchii... nad3eelhom
Uncle Hamad: 9ij ma taghayartay!

and he kissed her forehead.

Uncle Hamad didn't really need to talk to her about how it would be hard. He knew that she was strong and that she could handle it.

Uncle Hamad: Lulu, entay lazim etyeen et3eesheen 3endi 3asha..
Lulu: LA, sorry khali bas i don't that thats a good idea.

Lulu didn't really think that it was a good idea for leaving her house and live with her uncle. He was married and had kids, she didn't want to make it harder for him.

Uncle Hamad: bas may9eer tig3ideen hni brou7ich..
Lulu: i9eer, im sorry bas nothing will make me change my mind.. walla i appreciate you asking me, bas i can't!
Uncle Hamad: laish baba?
Lulu: cause this is where i should be, my life started here and should end here. Hni ree7at omi w eboy w ekhoy.. I can't go with you and leave baitna
Uncle Hamad: a3arfich 3adil.. matghayreen rayich mithel eboch !

She smiled. She loved it when someone compared her to her father. She loved that she looked and acted like him.

Lulu went to the 3aza. She was strong. No one thought that this young girl would have this power to stay like this. She didn't even shed a tear infront of anyone. Even if it was wrong, but she thought of it as a sign that she can do it, she can do it on her own.

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and yes thats the end of 'And She Calls This Living' :D