You'll Always Be A Part Of Me 18:*

We didn't see each other so often. Cause he has this thing ina his friends and family are first then i guess its me.

Well, i hate that about him but still mo 7ilw itha walad 6ool il wakt bas lazig bil bint lazim shway facha:p

Sometimes i would get upset ya3nie 6ool il yoom maydig ila laiman i go to sleep he calls thats the only time he's free.
and still he thinks alot about his future and stuff so wayid wiya uni.

Remember Barak ?

The guy that called me, and turned out to be Mohammed's friend.

Yes, mohammed never brought up what happened in slider up. ofcourse guys won't be saying this girl shayfa nafs'ha aw inha thigeela , i think;p.

So, that day we were talking..


Mohammed: ehh 9a7 jawan t3arfeen a7ad isma barak alflani??

Jawan: mm, laa mno hatha?

and i really didn't know who he was talking about at that time. Cause ma kint a3arif his family name.

Mohammed: laa khala9 wala shay.

I hate it when people do this to me, they ask me something and then they tell me nothing about it.

Jawan: shda3wa? gool ya3ni?

Mohammed: ga3id as'al bas.

Jawan: ya3ni mn ihni ou il6ireej?

Mohammed: ehh..

Jawan: ok kaifik .

Then, he ended the subject and got to another thing. Bas still i was thinking who's Barak.

Jawan: ligaiiitaaaaa.

Mohammed: shno?

Jawan: mno barakk !!

Mohammed: al7een 6ool il wakt ga3da itfakreen ib hatha wala tismi3een shagool!

Jawan: ely kan wiyak ib slider wiya hatha badir?

Mohammed: sh3arifach ib badir ba3ad??

Hni 3a9ab.

Jawan: laa bas ohwa cousin my friend.

Mohammed: mm, ok.. inzain ou sh3arifach ib barak?

At that point tiwahagt. Shagoula? He called me? Laaa!! But barak told him or something cause mabi i lie ou a6la3 akhir shay ana ily ghala6;s .

Jawan: madrii mathkirr..

Mohammed: shda3waaa?

Jawan: ehh wallaa..

Mohammed: inzain lai thikartay digeelii.

and he closed the line.

I sent him a message.

"it9ika ib wayhi?"

1 message recieved:

" ma 3ash mn i9ika ib wayhich! "

Sent:

"sh3ogba? 3ogob ma 9akaita?"

Incoming Call.

Shilta.

Mohammed: 7abeebtii.

Jawan: shno?

Mohammed: shda3wa za3altay?

Jawan: ya3nie it9ika ib wayhi, ath7ak?

Mohammed: ehh 3adii ma 9ar shayy;p

Jawan: eh wakt inta tabi tghashmar, tghashmar 3ala kaifiik !

Mohammed: enzain gouleelii mno barak??

I told him.

Yes i did.

7amadi was my weakness magdar akhish 3alaih shay.

Mohammed: tadreen ini adri?

Jawan: mn wain?

Mohammed: mn badir. 3abalich ma egouli?
a9lan mn yoom ohwa 7acha 3ashan yab3id 3anich ana ham 7achaita.

Jawan: ahhaaa.

Mohammed: laish ma gilteeli?

Jawan: i wasn't that close wiyak wila shay, ou ma kint abi akharib 3ilaqatkom ma3a ba3ath.

Mohammed: itha ma adafi3 3anich . badafi3 3ala mno?

Jawan: sorry, next time agoulikk.

Mohammed: la inshallah mako next time, bas mara thanya ayshay e9eer seeda itgouleelii.

Jawan: inshalllahh.

Mohammed: 7alat'hom ily yismi3oun il kalam;**

Jawan: seriously? inta cham shakh9iya 3indikk in 1 minute?;p

Mohammed: haa 3aad, la tkhaleeni awareech el3ain il7amra al7een?;p

Jawan: laa tgouull:p

Mohammed: oooooooohhhhhh, ashouuf 6ala3lich ilsan ??;p

Jawan: 3indi mn ziman bas kint asti7y miniik:p

Mohammed: yah yah;p ehh khalich chethy kela zifayyy!:p

Jawan: ehh akhaleek itgoum ou enta tabchi ou tnaam ou enta tabchi! ;p

Mohammed: gad'ha?;p

Jawan: la2!:D

Mohammed: 3abalyy:p

We continued chatting, and he started i6afirny bas ma kint agoula shay:p !

The next time i saw him was my birthday.

Mohammed: 3indi lich surprise il layla!!

Jawan: 9ij shno?

Mohammed: agoulaaha surprise itgouli shno;p

Jawan: osh osh;p

Mohammed: yalla shway ou amirich;p

Jawan: tara ma giltly happy birthdayy!:P

Mohammed: qa9ib?;p

Jawan: oofff, bye!

And i closed the line.

Dressed up and waited for mohammed bel 9ala.

Later mama dashat salamt 3alaiha and i was so excited. But bil yaalah 3a6atni wayh. And she was on her way upstairs.

I looked at her with sad eyes.

Jawan: mama?

Mama: Hallaa 7abeebtii??

Jawan: didn't you forget something?

Mama: laa 7abeebti aghrathy kilhom wiyay.

and she went to her room.

Wow!

I got upset ya3ne ma7ad bel bait kila knows ina il yoom 3eed meeladii?!

Even Khalouddd and Jawa!

Mohammed was outside, i went out and got into his car.

Mohammed: happy birthday, ya a7la ou ajmal insana bil dinyaa;****

and he gave me one of his big bear hugs.

I love him.

Jawan: thank youu;*

Mohammed: la tgouleen za3lana 3ashan giltlich mo qa9ib agoulich happy birthday?

Jawan: la its not that.

Mohammed: 3ayal?

Jawan: wala a7ad bel bait yadri ina today is my birthday!

Mohammed: 3adi 7abeebti yimkin nisaw.

Jawan: every year?

Mohammed: eh 3adii, ana mo lazim a7ad egouli il mohim bas entaii;*

What more can i say?! sikat.

We cruised around. and he took me to this spot madri wain.

We sat there. Just looking at the sky.

Mohammed: shiftay il najma ily mnak?

Jawan: wain?

Mohammed: the one on the right of the moon.

Jawan: ehh

Mohammed: samait'ha jawanii.

I smiled at him and hugged him tightly i never wanted to let go. I wanted him with me the whole time. Kint abeeh yami ou wiyay.

I wanted to sleep on his lap. I wanted to wake up and his face is the first one i see. I wanted to love him with my all.

I wanted him.

I needed him by my side.

I wanted to scream that i love mohammed al flani.

I wanted the whole world to know that he was the one.

I wanted them to know that we're inlove.

I never thought i would fall for anyone like this.

I thought that i would end up marrying someone i never met.

I thought that there will be no one by my side when i needed someone.

But mohammed..

He was there all along.

He knows every little thing about me

Even if it was the stupidest thing

he would always make me laugh even if he didn't have the mood to laugh..

He loved me ib kila.

ib kil ma feeh 7abni

7a6ni ib 3youna

ou sawani mithel il malak

ily 7ata omi ou eboy ma gdiraw isawoun mithel hal insan sawaalii.
.
He has this smile that would hypnotize you.

It's not only his look he was a real man..

Kan rayal mn galb

Kan gad kil kilma.

Gad kil shay gala.

Wala 3omra ghala6 3alay

9a7 i6afirni bas i liked it.

3omra ma khalani anam ou ana za3lana.

6ool 3omra i7asisni ina i'm the only girl in this whole world.

Wala 3omra 7a6 3aina 3ala wa7da ghairi

he would always stand up for me

my family, even my family would betray me but he wouldn't

Years passed and my sister and Khaloud got married.

No one was left at home ila me and mama. Well don't count mama in. She uses her house as a hotel ou 7ag il 3azayim.

Why did she even give birth to me if she didn't want to take care of me?

Ahali kanaw iza3louni ou wa7id ghareeb kan iwanisni.

He's the man that i could depend on my whole life.

And when i see a man he really deserves this word. and not every guy is a man .

He may be a man by his looks but not by his acts aw 7ata i7tarama 7ag il thanyeenn.

7amadii had this problem, he loved being with me which led him to hate being with me.

Why?

Because he was betraying ahali kilihom 3ala ina 3a6ouh il thiqa ou he's dating their daughter.

And i don't think they would have a problem if they knew about us.

Khaltii *om mohammed* would always call me and ask about me, after i graduated she was the one that helped through everything.

ahali mn 9oob omi ou eboy madri 3anhom, i met them when i was small but now i don't know them really well, but i wish i would know them.

I would travel with my friends' but never with mine. Sometimes i would travel with Khaloud, his wife, and children. But never with mama.

With Jawa, her husband, and son. But never with baba.

Khalid and Jawa knew really well what was happening. That was why they were all about and they were never at home. Kanaw yit'hariboun from reality. But i never did. and i don't like to pretend that my life is perfect just to impress others.

Money is not everything in everyones life you know. Kil mn mi7taaj 7ag 7anan.!

And my 7anan was all from 7amady and my friends, never from my family. Sometimes maybe from khaloud and jawa. but never from mama and baba!

all they think that i ask for is money.

They bought me the best cars, best stuff, everything i need and didn't need. But there was no love at any point.

You know when you fall and you cut your knee. mama kisses your knee and puts a bandage, that never happened to me.

When you graduate and you want to get a car and your surprises you with the best car, that never happened to me.

All of these stuff i did them by myself.


Everything.

But there was always 7amadiii..

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ok, that was longg:p

I finished it before 3 wow:p!


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